1 Jan nd
so with my wife for half an hour walking by moonlight and it, being cold
frosty weather, walking in the garden; and then home to supper, and so
by the fireside to have my head combed, as I do now often do, by Deb,
whom I love should be fiddling about me; and so to bed.
17th Jan ... all the discourse of the Duel yesterday betweeen
the Duke of Buckingham, Holmes, and one Jenkins on one side, and my Lord
of Shrewsbury, Sir Jo. Talbot, and one Bernard Howard, on the other side;
and all about my Lady Shrewsbury, who is a whore and is at this time,
and hath for a great while been, a whore to the Duke of Buckingham; and
so her husband challenged him, and they met yesterday in a close near
Barne Elmes and there fought; and my Lord Shrewsbury is run through the
body from the right breast through the shoulder, and Sir Jo. Talbot all
along up one of his arms, and Jenkins killed upon the place, and the rest
all in a little measure wounded. [This formidable duel was perhaps the most notorious of the period
in England. The Countess was Buckingham's mistress from 1666 to 1674.
Shrewsbury died two months later.]
... my Lord Hinchingbrooke hath been married this week [on the 13th]
to my Lord Burlington's daughter; so that great business is over, and
I mighty glad of it.
22nd Jan So home, and there to cards with my wife, Deb,
and Betty Turner and Batelier; and after, supper and late to sing; but
Lord, how did I please myself to make Betty Turner sing, to see what a
beast she is as to singing, not knowing how to sing one note in tune;
but only for the experiment I would not for 40s hear her sing a
tune - worse then my wife a thousand times, so that it doth a little reconcile
me to her. So, late to bed.
... I did meet with several people; and among others, Mr Brisbanke, who
tells me in discourse that Tom Killigrew hath a fee out of the wardrobe
for cap and bells, under the title of the King's foole or Jester, and
may with privilege revile or jeere anybody, the greatest person, without
offence, by the privilege of his place.
... blessed be God, all the Court is full of the good news of my Lord
Sandwiches having made a peace between Spain and Portugall [the Treaty
of Lisbon ending the 26 years war]; which is mighty great news, and
above all, to my Lord's honour, more than anything he ever did; and yet
I do fear it will not prevail to secure him in Parliament against incivilities
Feb 27th ... to the King's House to see [the play]
"Virgin Martyr" ... not that it is worth much but ... that which
did please me beyond anything in the whole world was the wind-musique
when the Angel comes down, which is so sweet that it ravished me; and
endeed, in a word, did wrap up my soul so that it made me really sick,
just as I have formerly been when in love with my wife; that neither then,
nor all the evening going home and at home, I was able to think of anything,
but remained all night transported, so as I could not believe that ever
any music hath the real command over the soul of a man as this did upon
me; and makes me resolve to practise wind-music and to make my wife do
... never in so much trouble in all my life of mind, thinking of the task
I have upon me ... [Pepys had to give a speech to Parliament explaining
the workings of his department] ... I full of thoughts and trouble
touching the issue of this day ...
So we all up to the Lobby; and between 11 and 12 a-clock were called in,
with the Mace before us, into the House.... I perceive the whole House
was full, and full of expectation of our defence what it would be, and
with great prejudice. After the Speaker had told us the disatisfaction
of the House, and read the report of the Committee, I begin our defence
most acceptably and smoothly, and continued at it without any hesitation
or loss but with full scope and all my reason free about me, as if it
had been at my own table, from that time till past 3 in the afternoon;
and so ended without any interruption from the Speaker but we withdrew.
And there all my fellow-officers overjoyed in it. ...
It is plain we have got good ground; and everybody says I have got the
most honour that any could have had opportunity of getting.
March 6th Up betimes and with Sir D Gawden to Sir W Coventry's
chamber, where the first word he said to me was, "Goodmorrow Mr Pepys,
that must be Speaker of the Parliament-house" - and did protest I
had got honour for ever in Parliament. He said that his brother, that
sat by him, admires me; and another gentleman said that I could not get
less than 1000l a year if I would put on a gown and plead at the
Chancery bar. But what pleases me most, he tells me that the Solicitor-general
did protest that he thought I spoke the best of any man in England.
.. and I to the Duke of York's lodging and find him going to the parke,
it being a very fine morning; and I after him, and as soon as he saw me,
he told me with great satisfaction that I had converted a great many yesterday,
and did with great praise of me go on with the discourse with me. And
by and by overtaking the King, the King and the Duke of York came to me
both, and he said, "Mr Pepys, I am very glad of your success yesterday;"
and fell to talk of my well speaking; and many of the Lords there, my
Lord Berkely did cry me up for what they had heard of it; and others,
Parliament men there about the King, did say that they never heard such
a speech in their lives delivered in that manner. ... I spent the morning
thus, walking in the Hall, being complimented by everybody with imagination.
March 13th ... met with my Lord Hinchingbrooke and his
Lady, the first time I spoke to her. I saluted her, and she mighty civil;
and with my Lady Jem do all resolve to be very merry tomorrow at my house.
My Lady Hinchingbrooke I cannot say is a beauty, nor ugly; but is altogether
a comely lady enough, and seems very good-humoured, and I mighty glad
of this occasion of seeing her before tomorrow.
... Anon comes my company, viz my Lord Hinchingbrooke
and his Lady, Sir Ph Carteret and his Lady, Godolphin and my Cosen Roger,
and Creed, and mighty merry; and by and by to dinner, which was very good
and plentiful ... Most of our discourse was of my Lady Sandwich and his
family, as being all of us of that family; and with extraordinary pleasure
all the afternoon thus together, eating and looking over my closet; and
my Lady Hinchingbrooke I find a very sweet natured and well disposed lady,
a lover of books and pictures and of good understanding.
March 24th [Sir Fr. Hollis] took Lord Brouncker and me
down to the guards ... and there he did, in a handsome room to that purpose,
make us drink and did call for his Bagpiper; which, with pipes of ebony
tipped with silver, he did play beyond anything of that kind that ever
I heard in my life. And with great pains he must have obtained it, but
with pains that the instrument doth not deserve at all; for at the best,
it is mighty barbarous music.
... and then home to dinner, where my wife and I had a small squabble;
but I first this day tried the effect of my silence and not provoking
her when she is an ill humour, and do find it very good, for it prevents
its coming to that height on both sides, which used to exceed what was
fit between us. So she became calm by and by ....
April 30th Thus ends this month; my wife in the country.
Myself full of pleasure and expense; and some trouble for my friends,
my Lord Sandwich by the Parliament, and more for my eyes, which are daily
worse and worse, that I dare not write or read almost anything. The Parliament
going in a few days to rise. Myself, so long without accounting now, for
seven or eight months I think or more, that I know not what condition
almost I am in as to getting or spending for all that time - which troubles
me, but I will soon do it.
The kingdom in an ill state through poverty. A fleet going out, and no
money to maintain it or set it out. Seamen yet unpaid, and mutinous when
pressed to go out again. Our office able to do little, nobody trusting
us nor we desiring any to trust us, and yet have not money to anything
but only what particularly belongs to this fleet going out, and that but
lamely too. The Parliament several months upon an act for 300000l,
but cannot or will not agree upon it - but do keep back, in spite of the
King's desire to hasten it, till they can obtain what they have a mind,
in revenge upon some men for the late ill managements; and he is forced
to submit to what they please. knowing that without it he shall have no
money; and they as well, that if they give the money, the King will suffer
them to do little more. And then the business of religion doth disquiet
everybody, the Parliament being vehement against the non-conformists,
while the King seems to be willing to countenance them: so we are all
poor and in pieces, God help us; while the peace is like to go on between
Spain and France, and then the French may be apprehended able to attack
us. So God help us.
May 12th ... I having there seen a Mummy in a merchant's
warehouse there,all the middles of the man or woman's body black and hard;
I never saw any before, and therfore pleased me much, though an ill sight;
and he did give me a little bit, and a bone of an arm I suppose; and so
home and there to bed.
May 21st .. and at noon my clerks dined with me; and there
do hear from them how all the town is full of talk of a Meteor, or some
fire that did on Saturday last to fly over the City at night; which doth
put me in mind that being then walking in the dark an hour or more myself
in the garden after I had done writing I did see a light before me come
from behind me, which made me turn back my head and I did see a sudden
fire or light running in the sky, as it were toward Cheapside-ward, and
vanished very quick; which did make me bethink myself what holiday it
was; and took it for some Rocket, though it was much brighter then any
rocket, and so thought no more of it; but it seems Mr Hater and Gibson,
going home that night, did meet with many clusters of people talking of
it, and many people of the towns about the City did see it, and the world
doth make much discourse of it - their apprehensions being mighty full
of the rest of the City to be burned, and the papists to cut our throats
- which God prevent.
day I up at between 2 and 3 in the morning; and calling
up my boy and father's boy, we set out by 3 a-clock, it being high day;
and so through all the waters with very good success, though very deep
almost all the way, and got to Brampton where most of them in bed; and
so I weary up to my wife's chamber, whom I find in bed and pretended a
little not well, and endeed she hath those upon her ...
I to my father, poor man, and walked with him up and down the house, it
raining a little - and the waters all over Portholme and the meadows -
so as no pleasure abroad.
After dinner, my Lady Sandwich sending to see whether I was come, I presently
took horse and find her and her family at chapel ... After sermon, I with
my Lady and my Lady Hinchingbrooke and Paulina and Lord Hinchingbrooke
to the dining room, saluting none to them [showing his exalted status]
and there sat and talked an hour or two, with great pleasure and satisfaction,
to my Lady about my Lord's matters ....
At noon home to dinner, where my wife still in a melancholy fusty humour,
and crying; and doth not tell me plainly what it is, but I by little words
find that she hath heard of my going to plays and carrying people abroad
every day in her absence; and that I cannot help, but the storm will break
out, I know, in a little time.
June 30th Up and at the office all the morning. Then home
to dinner, where a stinking leg of mutton - the weather being very wet
and hot to keep meat in.
... after supper parted and to bed - my eyes bad but not worse; only,
weary with working. But however, I very melancholy under the fear of my
eyes being spoilt and not to be recovered; for I am come that I am not
able to read out a small letter, and yet my sight good, for the little
while I can read, as ever they were I think.
July 15th Wonderful hot all day and night, and this the first
night that I remember in my life that ever I could lie with only a sheet
and one rug; so much I am now stronger than ever I remember myself to
be, at least since before I had the stone.
Up, and by water to St James ... and there, after the Duke of York was
ready, he called me to his closet, and there I did long and largely show
him the weakness of our office, and did give him advice to call us to
account for our duties; which he did mighty well, and desired me to draw
up what I would have him write to the office. I did lay open the whole
failings of the office, and how it was his duty to find them and to find
fault with them, as Admiral, especially at this time - which he agred
to - and seemed much to rely on what I said.
At noon dined; and then I out of doors to my bookseller in Duck Lane,
but the wife not at home. And it was pretty here to see a pretty woman
pass by with a wanton look; and I did follow her round about the street
from Duck Lane to Newgate market and then she did turn back and I did
So ... to Spring Garden and there eat and walked, and
observe how rude some of the young gallants of the town are become, to
go into people's arbors where there are not men, and almost fortce the
women - which troubled me, to see the confidence of the vice of the age....
... to Whitehall; and it is strange to see with what speed the people
imployed do pull down Paul's steeple - and with what ease. It is said
that it and the Quire are to be taken down this year and another church
begun in the room thereof the next. [ the building of Wren's church
was begun in 1673 and ended in 1716]
Mr Moore tells me the sad condition my Lord Sandwich is in his estate
and debts and the way he lives in, so high, and so many vain servants
about him, that he must be ruined if he doth not take up ....
This day Pierce doth tell me, among other news, the late frolic and Debauchery
of Sir Ch. Sidly and Buckhurst, running up and down all the night with
their arses bare through the streets, and at last fighting and being beat
by the watch and clapped up all night.
That the King was drunk at Saxam with Sidly, Buckhurst etc the night that
my Lord Arlington came thither, and would not give him audience, or could
25th ... and after supper, to have my head combed by Deb, which occasioned
the greatest sorrow to me that ever I knew in this world; for my wife,
coming up suddenly, did find me embracing the girl with my hand under
her skirts; and indeed, I was with my hand in her cunny. I was at a wonderful
loss upon it, and the girl also; and I endeavoured to put it off, but
my wife was struck mute and grew angry, and as her voice came to her,
grew quite out of order; and I do say little, but to bed; and my wife
said little also, but could not sleep all night; but about 2 in the morning
waked me and cried ... till at last it appeared plainly her trouble was
at what she saw; but yet I did not know how much she saw and therefore
said nothing to her. But after her much crying and reproaching me with
inconstancy and preferring a sorry girl before her, I did give her no
provocations but did promise all fair usage to her, and love, and foreswore
any hurt that I did with her - till at last she seemed to be at ease again;
and so, towards morning, a little sleep ....
Thence by coach home and to dinner, finding my wife mightily discontented
and the girl sad, and no words from my wife to her. So after dinner, they
out with me about two or three things; and so home again, I all the evening
busy and my wife full of trouble in her looks; and anon to bed - where
about midnight, she wakes me and there falls foul on me again, affirming
that she saw me hug and kiss the girl; the latter I denied, and truly;
the other I confesed and no more....
... my wife did towards bedtime begin to be in a mighty rage from some
new matter that she had got in her head, and did most part of the night
in bed rant at me in most high terms, of threats of publishing my shame;
and when I offered to rise, would have rose too, and caused a candle to
be lit to burn by her all night in the chimney while she ranted; while
I, that knew myself to have given some grounds for it, did make it my
business to appease her all I could possibly, and by good words and fair
promises did make her very quiet; and so rested all night and rose with
perfect good peace, being heartily afflicted for this folly of mine that
did occasion it; but was forced to be silent about the girl, which I have
no mind to part with, but much less that the poor girl should be undone
by my folly.
So ends this month, with some quiet to my mind, though not perfect, after
the greatest falling out with my poor wife, and through my folly with
the girl, that ever I had; and I have reason to be sorry and ashamed of
it - and more, to be troubled for the poor girl's sake; whom I fear I
shall by this means prove the ruin of - though I shall think myself concerned
both to love and be a friend to her.
... and so to supper and to bed - my mind yet at disquiet that I cannot
be informed how poor Deb stands with her mistress, but I fear she will
put her away; and the truth is, though it be much against my mind and
to my trouble, yet I think it will be fit that she be gone....
This noon Mr Povy sent his Coach for my wife and I to see; which we like
mightily, and will endeavour to have him get us just such another.
So to Povy's to talk about a coach, but there I find my Lord Sandwich
and Peterborough and Hinchingbrooke, Ch. Herbert and Sidny Mountagu; and
there I was stopped, and dined mighty nobly at a little table, with one
little dish at a time upon it - but mighty merry; ...
... and I observed my wife to eye my eyes whether I did ever look upon
Deb; which I could not, but do now and then (and to my grief did see the
poor wretch look on me and see me look on her, and then let drop a tear
or two )...
November 10th ... so home to dinner, where I find my wife mightily troubled again,
more than ever, and she tells me that it is from examining the girl and
getting a confession from her of all ... which doth mighty trouble me.
... we to talk again, and she to be troubled, reproaching me with my unkindness
and perjury, I having denied my ever kissing her - as also with all her
old kindnesses to me, and my ill-using of her from the beginning, and
the many temptations she hath refused out of faithfulness to me; whereof
several she was perticular in, and especially from my Lord Sandwich by
the sollicitation of Captain Ferrer; and then afterward, the courtship
of my Lord Hinchingbrooke, even to the trouble of his Lady. All which
I did acknowledge and was troubled for, and wept; and at last pretty good
friends again ... and at last, with new vows, and perticularly that I
would myself bid the girl be gone and show my dislike to her - which I
shall endeavour to perform, but with much trouble.
... I to my wife and to ssit with her a little; and then called her and
Willet to my chamber, and there did with tears in my eyes, which I could
not help, discharge her and advise her to be gone as soon as she could,
and never to see me or let me see her more while she was in the house;
which she took with tears too, but I believe understands me to be her
November 13th ... Thence I home, and there to talk, with great pleasure, all the
evening with my wife, who tells me that Deb hath been abroad today, and
is come home and says she hath got a place to go to, so as she will be
gone tomorrow morning. This troubled me; and the truth is, I have a great
mind for to have the maidenhead of this girl ....
November 14th [at a short word from Pepys to his wife she lost her temper with
him] ... she instantly flew out into a rage, calling me dog and rogue,
and that I had a rotten heart; all which, knowing that I deserved it,
I bore with ...
And so at night home to supper, and there did sleep
with great content with my wife. I must here remember that I have lain
with my wife as a husband more times since this falling-out than in I
believe twelve months before - and with more pleasure to her than I think
in all the time of our marriage before.
November 18th [unable to put her out of his mind he seeks
out Deb] ... and there she came into the coach to me, and I did kiss
her and touch her thing but she was against it and laboured with much
earnestness, such as I believed to be real; and yet at last I did make
her take me in her hand ... with grand delight.
November 19th Up, and at the office all morning, with my heart
full of joy to think in what a safe condition all my matters now stand
between my wife and Deb and me; and at noon, running upstairs ... I find
my wife sitting sad in the dining room; which enquiring into the reason
of, she begun to call me all the false, rotten-hearted rogues in the world,
letting me understand that I was with Deb yesterday ... and I did confess
all ... And which was worst, she swore by all that was good that she would
slit the nose of this girl, and be gone herself this very night from me;
... [I am now] most absolutely resolved, if ever I can maister this
bout, never to give her occasion while I live of more trouble of this
or any other kind, there being no curse in the world so great as this
of the difference between myself and her; and therefore I do by the grace
of God promise never to offend her more, and did this night begin to pray
to God upon my knees alone in my chamber ...
Thus ended this month with very good content, that hath been the most
sad to my heart and the most expenseful to my purse on things of pleasure,
having furnished my wife's closet and the best chamber, and a coach and
horses, that ever I yet knew in the world; and doth put me into the greatest
condition of outward state that ever I was in, or hoped ever to be, or
desired - and this at a time when we do daily expect great changes in
this office and, by all reports, we must all of us turn out. But my eyes
are come to that condition that I am not able to work; and therefore,
that, and my wife's desire, makes me have no manner of trouble in my thoughts
about it - so God do his will in it.
And so home, it being mighty pleasure to go alone with my poor wife in
a coach of our own to a play; and makes us appear mighty great, I think,
in the world; at least, greater than ever I could, or my friends for me,
have once expected, or I think then ever any of my family ever yet lived,
in my memory, but my cosen Pepys in Salsbury-court [John Pepys d 1659,
secretary to Lord Chief Justice Coke]
This day was brought home my pair of black coach-horses, the first I ever
was maister of; they cost me 50l and are a fine pair.
And blessed be God, the year ends, after some late very great sorrow with
my wife by my folly; yet ends, I say, with great mutual peace and content
- and likely to last so by my care, who am resolved to enjoy the sweet
of it which I now possess, by never giving her like cause for trouble.
My greatest trouble is now from the backwardness of my accounts, which
I have not seen the bottom of now near these two years, so that I know
not in what condition I am in the world; but by the grace of God, as fast
as my eyes will give me leave, I will do it,